I decided over the weekend to make up with my little sister. It wasn’t a very easy decision for me but I know it is what is best for her and for me. I will support her no matter what and, although I am still jealous, I’ve decided I don’t have to be selfish about it. I know she needs support now and will need a ton more in the future. I started talking to her again over the weekend and apologized if I had acted badly towards her. She actually said she understood and would have probably been really mean to me if our roles were reversed. After our conversation, I felt like a weight was lifted off of me and I wasn’t so self-pitying anymore.
I also made another decision. I went and got a tattoo on Saturday (I have others so I know and trust the artist). Even if this cycle works perfectly I decided I wanted to have something to commemorate my time TTC and as an Infertile; I’m also hoping the symbol will give me some luck!
So far, it is healing very nicely.